My God and I mean my God today has been one of those days with the preschooler and the toddler boys. As I am typing the two year old has an apple that he is throwing around the living room. Just about 15 minutes ago he took the egg carton out of the refrigerator and cracked eggs on the living room floor. Thank God my 11year daughter is home from school and she cleaned it up.
I love my boys dearly but I really need to get away from them. I am so mad right now. I’m listening to some Gospel music trying to kill the spirit of anger but I am pissed! I’m mad that I’m tied down these boys 24/7. If I try to get up early in the morning to have some time to myself, they wake up right behind me. All I want to do is be able to read my bible and have some prayer time in peace!
When the hubby gets home from work he’s either upstairs in the bedroom watching t.v. or in the basement doing his homework. He works with screaming brats all day in a pediatric dental office, so he has nothing left for his own boys when he gets home. And I’m not going to go and leave them with a tired, angry, frustrated dad. It’s not their fault he works with screaming kids all day. So it’s just me and the boys ALL of the time, ALL OF THE TIME. I’m blessed and angry all at the same time. Does that make sense?
I need to figure out how to do things differently. I need to figure out how to have some ME TIME. There has to be a better way than this. But at this very moment all I can do is blog about it. It really does help to get it out some kind of way. Believe it or not, I do actually have some good days. Just so happens today is not one of em and I’m blogging today to keep the frustration away!
Glamours I just noticed your picture on twitter and I’m Angel’s cousin well like a cousin his father was my dad best friend. My brother and I used to spend summers at his parents house. Its a please meeting you my name is Kriss Giles I read your blog and we seem to have alot in common I have a 3 year old boy a husband, and I too wahm! Its a challenge especially with small kids Well i would love to hear from you guys and get to know you better. How’s Lilly?
Take care,
Kriss
Oh wow, I have been there!My kids are grown, but I remember the frustration. I would put the children to bed early and try to get some “me” time, but then my husband would want some attention or the house would need cleaning. The only thing that used to help me was an exercise class a couple of days a week-it really helped to blow off steam. It sounds like you need a babysitter and a couple of hours away. Hope the rest of the day goes better for you!
Oh I’m at the gym Monday baby! Enough is enough all ready. I need somewhere to put all this frustration and anger. Thanks for the suggestion! =)